(cw: Suicide Talk)
First off, I want to apologize for scaring people with my previous blogpost. What happened to me after posting that isn’t really important to what I wanna say, but for those who are worried about me, I’m currently safe and planning to seek help.
What I really want to say is to warn you not to do what I did. There is help, if you feel you’re going to harm yourself, ask a close one or professional to talk you out of it. It can be a family member, a friend, a therapist, a suicide hotline, just anyone you trust to give you the help you need.
Posting your serious personal issues on the internet is more often than not going to make it worse. I was lucky enough to have almost all the comments on that be supportive, but more often than not, it’s going to be people egging you on.
Not to mention there’s a risk of it turning into a “Boy Cried Wolf” situation and people will stop taking you seriously.
Second, don’t believe you are what someone calls you on the internet, do your fucking research.
The term “schizo” has just become a buzzword at this point, completely removed from its original meaning.
I remember multiple times searching up what schizophrenia was and reading that the symptoms didn’t match up with what I was told it was, yet kept gaslighting myself into believing what I was reading wasn’t the truth.
In a time where misinformation spreads so easily, you really need to check the sources on what someone says on the internet. I know “Don’t believe everything you see on the internet” is something that’s been said to death, but it really is true.
Many people, including myself take what they see on the internet at face value and don’t really look further into it. Which leads me to my final point of advice:
Get off the internet sometimes. Like a week or two long break every now and then.
As much as the internet can be a please to spread creativity and positivity, most of the time people are destructive and constantly at each other’s throats.
This amount of negativity can be super overwhelming, so just step away and do something else. Be reminded of what’s good in the world every once and awhile.
Taking a break can also give you more time doing important tasks, hanging with friends in person or with your hobbies. The world is a beautiful place and you don’t need to be glued to a screen all the time.
I don’t need to be a therapist to tell you life is worth living.
You are important and the world wouldn’t be the same without you. You matter, and you have can bring up someone else who is down.
So follow the title and spread a little positivity, it can go a long way.